I quit ...

I wrote: “I quit.”

Two simple words.  When I wrote it, I had my reasons.  Not just one reason, many.  But those two words summed up all of them.  The responses varied from people who were worried about what I meant, to jokes, to the response you would expect…”What?”

So, I decided to do this post on the many reasons for my mysterious statement.

I Quit:

• …beating myself up because some decision I made ticked some people off.  It’s my decision, if you don’t like it, bugger off.
• …caring whether or not my presence is important to you.  As they say, love your own company and you’ll never be lonely.
• …waiting for you to show me that I’m important.  Actions speak a whole  of a lot louder than well thought-out words.
• …believing people are all innately good.  To quote Maya Angelou, “When people show you who they are, believe them the first time.”
• …being the only one to reach out and try to make a friendship/relationship work.  If you don’t care enough to see my effort and put in some of your own, I don’t hate you, I’d just rather put my energy towards someone who appreciates it.
• …thinking it’s “me”.  I’ve got people who really, truly know and care for me.  If you can’t see my worth, that’s okay.
• …playing games.  I want authentic relationships with people.  If you want to talk to me, talk.  If you want to see me, tell me.  If you love me, show me.  Games are for kids and scared individuals.
• …making excuses for people.  Think of those people you reach out to and those you avoid.  If someone wants to speak to you or be around you, they WILL.
• …believing that my honesty and bared soul will automatically make others treat me kindly.  Some people are more comfortable seeing you through their own filter and trying to make you feel less than.
• …trying to please EVERYONE.  I may not like everything You like, like going everywhere You like to go and think the way You do…that doesn’t make me WRONG, it makes me DIFFERENT.
• …caring whether or not some part of who I am, what I believe or my way of thinking rubs you the wrong way.  If you truly love or care for me, you would accept me for being Exactly who I am, dents and all.

And finally, I Quit allowing others to take my energy and de-rail my emotions.  As Robert Frost once said, “You are educated when you have the ability to listen to almost anything without losing your temper or confidence.”  I need that tattooed somewhere on me…

So, I breathe deeply and just let.it.all.go.  Join me and let’s just live.in.love.